Cry

Well I came back to Finland, I don't know if it was a good idea, I feel like getting into depressed again. Or this is some weird feeling, which makes me cry and think nobody need me, sometimes I wish I would get so sick, I would just lay in my bed and wait some dark cloth  demon come to pick me up, something wrong with me? Should I go see somebody? I cannot think this myself, I'm stuck on these weird minds. They don't go away.